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[takeitsleazy]

[he'd had plenty of advance notice about the moon: first from Merlin, then from Hades, and then, the previous evening, from that strange little bird. he didn't know what to expect, but whatever it was, he knew that whatever gave him his power - and his guess was his Eternal nature - was going to be weakened even more than it already had been.

he had to prepare.

so he'd spent part of his first paycheck on something very, very important. a hoodie. on a whim, he'd also grabbed a few other things: some snacks, a few books, and a box of paper clips.

he manages to make it home to his apartment before the sun starts to set, and feels pretty positive and confident about this whole thing. he lines the books up on the coffee table, and puts the snacks which require refridgeration in the kitchen. but as the sun sinks, so does his mood. suddenly, everything starts to look daunting. strange. larger, somehow. something inside him begins to wind up into knots, turning and churning, creating sea changes. what's happening? he doesn't know. but he's --

-- oh. frightened. great. he tries to pace it away, but that only makes the knots worse. soon his stomach hurts, and even glancing at the junk food is a bad idea. he retreats to the bathroom, where he shucks off his suit coat and dress shirt, pulling on the hoodie to stare at himself in the mirror. He tries to will even just his eyes to look the way they really do. Nothing. Not even a faint glimmer. Just ice blue and floating black, wide and human and scared.

Michael pulls the strings tight on the hood, making its tiny little round black ears stand up, and retreats back to the couch, falling over on it sideways. His 3M slides out of the pocket of his pants, and he stands it up against a few of the books to look into it]

[just. staring. congratulations. he's on a couch full of emotion.]

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[blessedarethebookmakers]

Oh for Heaven's sake. Demons. You couldn't even decline politely and they either had a temper tantrum or ended up looking like a beached jellyfish. Aziraphale supposed they were so affection starved or attention starved that they needed that kind of reassurance and he had quite enough to take care of with all the humans running around and the Kingdoms in a mess and the endless dance with Crowley which he had to be so very careful with and back home the Apocolypse loomed like a giant cloud with forking lightning and all he wanted to do was to go back home to his bookshop and hibernate for the next fifty years-- but that was apparently too much to ask.

He smiled instead.

"I don't insist. I merely didn't want to inconvenience you. But, if it's something you truly wish to do than what can I say but it would be my pleasure."

He prays that they are mediocre. And also please dear God above do not let this demon develop any sort of feelings for him because there is only so much even he can take.

[takeitsleazy]

Feelings? Perish the thought. He can barely identify them, let alone allocate any of them to any specific person. And even if he could, the only thing Aziraphale would have in common with said allocated person would be hair color. But those feelings were still lurking, percolating, somewhere deep in the mess of his subconscious. The new moon was pulling them closer to the surface, like a slow-working magnet, but they still had to be filtered through everything else. And there was an awful lot of everything else in the way.

Thankfully, he was just as worried about getting things right as he was being involved in them, and if Friendship meant pancakes, he couldn't just make him any old pancakes. He had to make sure he did it right. "It might be a little while, then. I ... need to make sure they're good. I may not have been at this Good stuff for very long, but I'm pretty sure you don't give someone a crappy thank you present."

[blessedarethebookmakers]

"Take your time by all means." He can't help but be a little relieved at the reprieve, silently wishing it's forgotten about but not going to say no when it turns up again. "Anything you create will be lovely, I'm sure. But it will be better if you are proud of it as well."

[takeitsleazy]

He might forget about the pancakes themselves, but the conversation is certainly going to stick. He gives Aziraphale a little wave, then closes the mirror, leaving him to tend to his sleeping demon.